Enlightened

After all the drama that has happened, I am sooo glad that things are getting better.

Last Sunday, Beb was supposed to go to our house at 6 a.m. I woke up at 4 a.m. because I have this queasy feeling in my stomach again. Something that tells me that there's no way I could stop the impending doom.

A few days ago, I dreamt that Beb went to our house and told me that he had already made up his mind that everything was over between us and that it wasn't that important to him if our family was whole or not. So syempre, maluka-loka ang lola mo!

It was 9 and he still hasn't arrived so I decided it would be better if we went to church first then we could just talk later when we got home. I texted him and he told me that he was at church and that he would be going to our place after mass to talk with me.

I told him that we were already on our way to church. Was I surprised when he said he would follow us there so we could fix our problem right away! For more than a week, that was the first time that I truly believed that there was hope for us.

We talked.

About what went wrong and about what we wanted. We both wanted to keep our relationship going. We both wanted to keep the family whole. But we also agreed that we needed to become more mature and to become more emotionally and financially stable.

We decided that the only thing that would change is that we're not going to be living together. Not really great news for me but it's better than nothing.

He has told me that we were going to get married after his board exam before he goes to work in the States. It's only gonna be a civil wedding though because we don't have the money yet.

Well, we had it before because his parents were gonna shoulder the cost but with what happened, we're left to fend on our own. After a couple of years, that's when we're gonna have a church wedding.

I know, I know. Lagi na lang postponed. But the first was because I was waiting for my petition to come through. The second was because he started studying. They say three's a charm so hopefully, this time, it'll happen.